Terrified... mortified... stupefied...By myself,may be because "the fact" is sinking in me that I will not be pampered by my parents or have my lovely friends beside me to share everything(which is what i did passt 10 years)..ALERT-"i am just other kid who is aspiring!! to land up in US for MS"(surprise surprise!!)..right now everybody even me as matter of fact are so focused on career's,resumes and placements that its hard to even think about a day off to do something for fun,even if we do find time we end up talking about any of the above three topic's!!!..As far as my parents are considered the only topic that comes up during meal times is "who got into which company n loads of bullshit about 'me coming to age'(in 2 months i am going to 21)"..Actually i am thinking abt that too(THE OTHER WAY AROUND!!)...Mums usually fussing about how untidy i am and dad about my acads,projects n abt my savings account!!
My thinking has taken a DRASTIC turn and interestingly i feel people around me are going through same phase..May be (*key word may be...completely my opinion..y..since its my blog!!) we change our complete character here strictly speaking of myself,I became more selfish,egoistic and boring!!...I never fought with my school friends(except for cat fights we usually have..y..becoz we are gals!!)now a days its highly unusually if one among us is not pissed at others!!...All along (4 years of engineering) i dreamed was about "D day" i.e collecting my certificates and throwing disgusting looks on all those people who deserved it(knock knock my professor's...y...becuase they r too sweet n charming!!) but now all i feel is not leaving dat(stupid!sucking!!) college...y..thats a billion dollar question huh???
I was never scared about future..its not because i dint think about,i have a friend who kindly enlightens us about all sorts of exams,companies,..whatever related to career!!...but i was confident that everything is well planed..but now seriously thinking about it i find flaws n loophole's everywhere!!!!Does this mean i am finally screwed up!!!Is this y Hrithik sang "main aisa kyon hoon??(in lakshya movie)Is everybody (my age mates!!)this insecure??... I am ending up doing everything I once thought is uncool like 4 example " i am boring you with this stupid blog!!" ...Finally somebody is happy with whats happening to me(changes n stuff)..guess who????
my parent's they think I am growing up and learning my priorities but tahdaaaaaaaaa actually i am "CRACKING UP" and learning to confuse myself...!!!
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i suppose we are on the same boat....
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